Its 6 months since I’ve been married to him and just 2 months of physical togetherness…For those who were following me on common socializing sites would have at least once felt how happy I look in those “holiday” pics so here’s me, Aditi (still)Upadhyay is now unveiling the part 2 of my story….
10151 kilometers or 6308 miles or 5481 nautical miles to be precise is the physical distance between us (when he is on the ground floor of our duplex apartment in Sydney, exactly where our bedroom is and me at the main gate of my Mumbai Studio Apt.) Due to reasons beyond explanation, I don’t have a decent internet connection at my place to allow me those life saving video calls to my beloveds so it would be correct to say that mobile phone, the God of our relation is the only means by which we are connected despite the difference in time zone that sucks.
Its hard to smile when you wear a new dress to office and wait till someone who is not busy pretending busy, clicks your pic and then you use the low speed BP’s internet to send ur hubby those pics where he can barely make out how you are looking in your new dress. When he cannot kiss you wearing it and cannot pinch you softly for wishing the typical new pinch…. When you cannot experiment the new recipe on him and would just have to tell him how it tastes on phone…. When your sprouting love is put behind the holes of speakers on your mobile phones you can hardly feel the love….. many a times your eyes are wet and the person would not know until you make the hammed sobbing attempt to make him hear which rapes the feelings and brings the heartless humor in between…. When you are late by just an hour to call him and later find that he is fast asleep coz its already 2 am and he has to be on time next day to office…. Believe me its not so easy to text someone you love the most, and u know is yours forever, good night SMS everyday…coz it pains… it really pains!
We fight, and we fight…things are getting worse…. We fight because we love, we love our jobs, our lives and ourselves…. Does that mean we don’t love each other? Are we criminals coz we have already murdered 6 months of our could-be romantic initial days of our marriage… We went to honeymoon to Seychelles, it continued in Sydney and now I feel its not yet started…. I wanna be with him. I wanna be with myself. I miss him for reasons we ourselves created.
Friends, just wait for my new “happy and smiling” pics of coming July when I’ll again go to Sydney for my Birthday…. for there are times like his bday, mine and our anniversary when its politically a sin to stay away….
